Guess who’s back, back again? The bitch is back, tell a friend.
Extremely sorry for that hello, it has definitely been used too many times before. However, I am back, and I only need one resolution for the upcoming year: update the blog more. Have definitely sucked at posting regularly, not only because I’m questioning what kind of content I want to put out there, but also because trying to juggle university and a social life is very easy; however, actually forcing yourself to sit down and write when your friends are going out for drinks seems to be extremely challenging. I promise to try to be better.
Now, the purpose of this post – I want to do a look back on my year, because boy has it been quite a year.
This time a year ago, I was quite literally drifting. I had chosen to take a year off between high school and university, simply because I had no idea what I was doing, or what I wanted to do for that matter. I always had interests, just never a clear path to a certain career I wanted. To be honest I still don’t have an exact plan career-wise, but I definitely have a lot more direction, and it feels really good.
Spring rolled around, and this is around the time I had my big revelation: I realised what I wanted to study. I might already have mentioned this on the blog (and I have told this story about a thousand times since I started uni, all my lecturers think it’s hilarious), but my great revelation came during and episode of Gilmore Girls (which I may or may not be re-watching at this exact moment. I’m team Logan).
For anyone who knows the show, Rory (one of our Gilmore girls) has always aspired to be a journalist and is very interested in books et cetera – something I relate to a lot. Literature has always been an interest of mine, I’ve always loved writing and would love to maybe interview important people – I just never realised you could actually study this interest of mine. My high school focused mainly on the STEM field, which is obviously awesome, but that was never a great interest of mine even if I did well in the subjects, so I just never realised you could actually study literature, actually read and write for a living! Obviously I realise how many people do write in one way or another for a living, but it just never occurred to me that I could do it. Obviously studying literature isn’t simply limited to writing, but you get my point. I found my calling.
Then, one fine summer night at 3 am I was up, most likely watching something on Netflix, when I decided to check my email. And what did I find? Well, only an acceptance email to my first choice university! I had a little dance party in my room and honestly could not wait until morning so I could tell my family. This was it, I was getting out of my small home town, I was going to move out of my parents life and begin a new, independent chapter of my life.
The end of summer got closer and closer, me and a really good friend of mine found an apartment that we’ve now been living in for about 5 months. Then it was time to pack up my life in Hanko and move everything to the city I was going to be studying in. I was a bit nervous for my first day at uni, because I didn’t know anyone who was going to be studying in the same faculty as me, but it did all turn out great. I’m honestly so happy with the direction my life is headed in right now, and I’ve met some really cool people through university and made so many new friends.
Obviously this year has had its downs as well, my almost 2-year relationship ended in early December, but there’s nothing to do about that, it was the right thing, and I can honestly say I have no regrets regarding that. On a lighter note, I’m no longer a teenager! I just turned 20 right at the end of December, but it hasn’t quite sunk in yet. I don’t really feel older, but I suppose you never really do, at least not in a day.
It’s the middle of the night right now, but I just suddenly felt so inspired to also give my blog a new chance this year that I just had to write something. What else is new..? Christmas was really great, I got tons and tons of books, and I barely have any time to read anything I want anyway, uni course lit takes up all of my free time. Still, right now I’m reading this book my brother got me about a guy who was innocent but still ended up incarcerated in Guantánamo Bay, and is yet to be released even though the US haven’t charged him for any crime. It’s sort of a diary mixed with an exposé, although many things are censored, but it’s a truly interesting and insightful read.
Anyway, now I shall get back to Gilmore Girls, and hopefully I might even get a little sleep at some point, even though I did nap around 8 PM. I’m blaming that on my cold though. Oh, and the aforementioned book is called Guantánamo Diary, it was written by Mohamedou Ould Slahi and put together by Larry Siems. Give it a read, especially if you’re interested in criminal literature.